On January 4 I started this blog. Today I will finish -- at least for now.

Most of what I have shared here was first written five or more years ago. I have revised and updated a bit, but only a bit.

In late 2004 when I wrote the first draft I was at the beginning of a tough time. In the last few months I have (I hope) emerged on the other side of the tough times.

There were several motivations for moving these meditations to a blog. These motivations did not include what has emerged as the principal personal benefit: Revisiting these meditations has helped me make better sense of the last five years.

The great challenge of these years has been finding a way to match my own sense-of-self (tsedeq) with the reality of my relationships (mishpat). I had a vague notion of this tension. Preparing these meditations helped clarify the tension and how it might be resolved.

As the struggle opened, my sense-of-self was suppressed, even oppressed, by a sense of obligation to clients and colleagues who mostly were not interested in the Exodus journey that I felt compelled to undertake. Most of these clients and colleagues were entirely satisfied with what struck me as Egyptian slavery. And the few colleagues who shared my dissatisfaction were inclined to choose a path considerably different than the twisting trek across the Sinai on which I had begun to walk.

While I have not - yet - reached what I envision as a promised land (flowing with milk and honey), I am confident that my current direction is much better suited for my particular tsedeq... and I am in the midst of working with a range of communities in shaping a meaningful mishpat.

There is a third set of meditations, finished nearly four years ago, that focuses on mishpat. But before I bring these to a blog, I want to work through the crafting of mishpat within my new context.

There were at least six individuals who have been regularly looking in on this blog and a few dozen who occasionally checked it out. Thanks for joining the journey. Wherever you are, I hope the path unfolding before you leads to an intersection of tsedeq and mishpat. I am still moving in what I hope is that direction. See you there.